It’s odd, the only time I can really be truly happy is when I’m
asleep. Though that doesn’t really help because I don’t get much of
that. Laying there with your eyes shut tight. Thinking the harder you
hold them closed the faster you’ll fall asleep. That never happens but
believe when I am finally asleep it’s amazing. When I can dream a
great dream its beautiful. When the nightmares are away that night
it’s amazing. I’m free, free to be with you. I can be myself, there’s
no judgment just love. Everyone’s happy and all the feelings that are
felt in the fairytales are there. So that way even if it will never
happen for real, I know when I sleep I get to feel it. I’m waiting,
waiting patiently for the day. The day you come to me and you say you
love me. That I’m the only one for you and no one else compares. I
wanna feel safe, I wanna feel warm and happy. I want my kids to see it
and grow to want that for themselves. I just want the innocence I had
before. Where everything was magical and everyone was capable of love.
But for now, when I dream, that’s the only time I see that world.


Not being able to separate everything will tear you apart. It’s not fair when someone is so happy but the other is so sad. I’m dying inside. I’m lost. I’m so hurt and so insulted. It’s my fault. I feel like my world is crashing down on me. My walls are closing in and I can’t breathe. I can’t make you happy forever and forget about me. It’s not fair. It’s not fair for you to ask me to. That’s not love. That’s torture. But you’ll never know the damage you’ve caused because you’ll never want to see it. Feel it. Live it. I don’t live right. I don’t love right. I’m selfish. I’m irresponsible. I’m broken. That’s how you feel about me. I’ve done nothing to say those things but try and live the life I want. I was just asking for what I need.

An Almost Introduction….

Ok so I decided I was gonna make a blog. I’m really good at getting my feelings out through writing. So here goes. This blog is about everything: Fashion, Beauty, Style, DIY and life. Now I will say this. I’ll give some info on me because obviously people want to know who’s writing I won’t tell you all about my life right now but I will tell you some. I’m a paralegal student, have 2 beautiful kids and I am married. I’m an artist of some kind and I have many loves. With that said hopefully you enjoy my blog because plan on putting all of my experiences in it and I hope to help other people with some things I have been through, tried, and love, some good, some bad, some happy, some sad. See there’s even a little Dr. Seuss action in there for ya, lol. Anyway here goes nothing